Who AM I ?

Its 3 AM in the morning ...Most of the night has gone and I am on my way to a new dawn.
But the thought that started with the night still haunts.
WHO AM I ? is the question I ask..But finding an answer to this always seems a daunting task.
Sometimes I feel I am a child...
sometimes I feel I have gone wild :)
Sometimes I am novice and sometimes grave
And above all always sweet and always the best...but I know I am million different people from one day to next..
While I was cuddling myself with these sweet thoughts, I saw a person who was just like me but had a different opinion about me...
This made me curious to know what the person had to show.
I asked her to speak up her mind,But she said, " If I speak up ..you will see yourself to be of a different kind".
I replied, " If only it is my other half...I want you to speak up from the start..with nothing hidden and nothing missing"
She started speaking and said
, "You are a person with an attitude and not so pretty face,
some one who doesnt have a pace..and still wants to win the race.
Unware of the reality likes to be in her dream world...only to realise later that her dreams have toppled and turned.
You are fearful , you are lame and being all this how can you even think you can win the game ..."
She was going on and on until I could not bear...there was nothing more I wanted to hear.
I had enough of the other side of me...which made me realise that...
I am bundle of contradictions and criticisms..of endorsement and encouragement all at the sametime..
All these thoughts are so convoluted in my brain....Ohh I feel so much of pain :(
Its 5AM now..and I am still stuck at the same question.......plus one
Will I have a morning with no questions and will have all the answers....
Perhaps I will.....the one after which I will never wake up ...


-Mugdha