If Only..

If only I could disguise myself into everything the world wants me to be..
Not sure how wise it would seem....

Things have been pricking like spines
Its just love for which I pine
I could bear the pain for a time long when there were flowers blossoming along with the creepy thorns
but now I hate even being born...

Born in a world which doesnt let you live without conditions..
I understand that there are situations ....
but are they so grave , that we lose the sense of empathy and sensitivity?

We think we are right always but does that mean we prove everybody else wrong.....
If only for a day , we could think of everything with love ....i am sure that day there would be no pain coz of the thorns but only sweet fragrance of flowers...

Lonely Rhythm

Life seems to be flowing so tenderly,
whistling another tired song....
My heart still locked severly...
to some one with whom i always belong..
and beats a lonely rhythm all night long...

Realign all the stars above in the sky
to change my fate and turn into love..all that I hate...
To have some one and not be alone...

But it seems my story is nothin more than what you see
or what I have done or what I will become...
My world is all the tiny things that I have left behind...
still standing strong and wondering if i still belong to my own skin...

May I still be so bold and I stay
to have someone to hold and say
your are my own and show that there are no bitter dreams
and shudders my skin and tells me my world will be all the tiny things that have to come ....
but it appears my heart will still beat a lonely rhythm all the nights to come..........

Who AM I ?

Its 3 AM in the morning ...Most of the night has gone and I am on my way to a new dawn.
But the thought that started with the night still haunts.
WHO AM I ? is the question I ask..But finding an answer to this always seems a daunting task.
Sometimes I feel I am a child...
sometimes I feel I have gone wild :)
Sometimes I am novice and sometimes grave
And above all always sweet and always the best...but I know I am million different people from one day to next..
While I was cuddling myself with these sweet thoughts, I saw a person who was just like me but had a different opinion about me...
This made me curious to know what the person had to show.
I asked her to speak up her mind,But she said, " If I speak up ..you will see yourself to be of a different kind".
I replied, " If only it is my other half...I want you to speak up from the start..with nothing hidden and nothing missing"
She started speaking and said
, "You are a person with an attitude and not so pretty face,
some one who doesnt have a pace..and still wants to win the race.
Unware of the reality likes to be in her dream world...only to realise later that her dreams have toppled and turned.
You are fearful , you are lame and being all this how can you even think you can win the game ..."
She was going on and on until I could not bear...there was nothing more I wanted to hear.
I had enough of the other side of me...which made me realise that...
I am bundle of contradictions and criticisms..of endorsement and encouragement all at the sametime..
All these thoughts are so convoluted in my brain....Ohh I feel so much of pain :(
Its 5AM now..and I am still stuck at the same question.......plus one
Will I have a morning with no questions and will have all the answers....
Perhaps I will.....the one after which I will never wake up ...


-Mugdha

First Flight of Fantasy

In the endless night , by the time I was high...I knew so much of life has passed by..
All the while I was cruising along that phase, I came across an unknown face.
The strange silence between us tempted to have a voice, But the two of us spoke with our eyes..
The melting of feelings and fusion of emotions , made it miraculous moment,
A moment we both wished would never end,....and where not a single word was said.
Mind was at peace but my heart was driving at its full speed.
There was an explosion ...there was a boom...I wanted to fly and zoom..!!!!!
There were questions , there were thoughts..I wanted to flush them all out...But the magical sereinity of the moment made us dive into the ocean of emotions ....which was unfathomable.
I felt beautiful and was pink..just when He gave me a glimpse.
I was scared , I was smiling..And my heart was singing and swirling.
He was still looking at me...but now with a deeper gaze,with his eyes straight on my face..
I sinked more into myself and stepped back a little with fear,only to realise there was a wall at my rear.
The touch of the wall made my heart accelerate more..And he was still looking at me.
I thought the world has come to an end with a stranger in the night ......all alone in this den.
He stepped towards me and I drew myself closer to the wall..
His each stride towards me felt like a mile..
And induced a dilemma in my mind.
I was dangling between right and wrong ..good and the bad..
While I was fighting with myself , .....He came and closed my eyes with his hand.
I got cold and freezed at my place.. just to realise He was wiping the sweat on my face.
I opened my eyes and saw him turn around..But something inside me made me say it loud..
"How can you leave me and go"
He turned back ..looked at me and said
"I am a Dream and have to leave,
Was here just to make you believe that you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.
I wish I could be human and have you..
But Alas, all I am is a Dream "


-Mugdha